now that's what i'm talkingggggg about.

i guess life is simple if you let it be

i wonder if people actually read this lol.
i'd hope not though. don't really think people would like the dark

when you admit something to yourself, when you slowly come to terms with it, is it supposed to feel like self pity or am i just doing something wrong?

i harbor too much self pity and too much guilt.
i acknowledge so many things but have no idea where to go from there
lawl

everything is a moving bubble within a bubble. and we're all in it together, even on the outside.

comfort exists in the most minuscule places

wild night

i dont mean to be this way but it just seems to be something that is out of my control. and i hate it and i want to let go of this scale and forget this shovel and go back to the water but there's always comfort in a place like this. especially once you've become used to how far down the ground goes and how much space there is between the darkness and the light. but either way, it's inmeasurable and everything is fiction. all i need is a rope in the form of a white circle, i guess. but i don't want that to feel fiction either. repeated circles. i'm stuck in my head completely and it's a terrible world. i can't do this by myself, it's really time i accepted that

ireallyfeellikei'mlosingit

imscared

what would happen if i just shut off

I NEED TO WRITE A FUCKING POEM BUT NOTHING WANTS TO COME OUT OF MY DAMN HEAD.

whoever says there's a way out just stopped believing in reality.
there is no way out.

i just want one day to passs by where i feel content and at ease with every situation in my life.

why do i always have to feel this way?

there are so many fucking areas of under and over ripeness.
ireallyneedhelp

ireallyhopethatonedayyoullrealize
andmaybe
youllmakeyourwayonhome

im outta my mind

the current

my family situation has never been this good.

participants (which in reality are each of one of us unless we completely lose the road) need to be active to gain tread to their destination.

why?

so uncomfortable.

loving it when people miss me but not entirely sure why.

missing you. missing you so badly sometimes. fizzlefadeFASTER. please.
^iwishistillknewyourthinkingpattern

phases never end

people want me and that makes me feel so good.

once you think you've uncovered the uncover-able, there's always more beyond your reach.

don't worry about a thing?

nothing solidifies

words of wisdom

to follow.
that i wish didn't seem so hard and out of reach.
meh.

Build a life you don't want to run away from.
Losers focus on what theyre going through, winners focus on what theyre going to.
One step at a time.

Cant stand the blazing sun, cant stand the morning rain.
I dont want to be alone.
(turn around youll see: the angle dies)