I have so much more to do and so much more growth to experience, but I want to give myself credit for what I've done. Quarantine has been hard for a lot of people, but it's been good for me.

• I stopped drinking
• I started walking and will slowly start running
• I have a health diet and skin care routine
• I started cold showering 
• My music choices are slowly changing from hard, masculine, angry to calm, feminine, smooth 
• I am gardening and even tho I don't know what i'm doing, i'm trying, and learning along the way
• I took my jealousies and told myself that instead of being less than, I am be equal to

The other day I found a bunch of old tumblr writings. I found one I especially liked that said "Somewhere, in the chaotic mass of energy and atomic particles, there is a small hole waiting to be filled. a small hole waiting for me to shine my own unique lightness, hue, and color. Somewhere, the world is waiting for me." and then I watched a TED talk the next day and the last words were "There is a You-shaped hole in the universe"