"Intoxicated with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness"

"emptiness is loneliness and loneliness is cleanliness and cleanliness is godliness and god is empty, just like me."

Sometimes I analyze and over think life to the point where nothing feels real

I freak myself out

The whole shameful, suffocating, and horrible realization is the fact that I am nothing but a walking defense mechanism. What is supposed to just be a small part of ones character is something completely different for me and I feel as if nobody will ever understand that.

so many goals to be made. I can't wait for thanksgiving break to sort all of this out.

for every book I read or story or article or anything, I want to get atleast 1 quote from it.
Let the games begin: (currently reading Brief Interviews with Hideous Men by David Foster Wallace)