I actually sort of feel lonely right now

My life right now is just one big tangled ball of indecision.

I just want to know what it is that I keep searching for

I keep relentlessly and even effortlessly prooving to myself I am unemotional. I am, and forever will be, a castle wall

If I mention you in my blog, you're important in some aspect

Last night was fucking weird

The only way I am capable of emotion is if I drink some liquor but not too much, just enough, and then become so vulnerable I spill my liquid sequentially to those who I guess seem thirsty