Here I am beginning to talk about success when I myself have yet to define what that actually means.

I wonder sometimes if I am really interested in other people successes genuinely or if i'm just interested in the point during which their success fails, and I somehow feel like i'm okay because in some sort of way we are both failures. I wonder if there ever is an even playing ground. Are there people out there that don't compete with each other, even subconsciously? Are there relationships that don't feel competitive in nature be in no matter what sort of way that competition may manifest itself? Am I just creating this competition in my head because I myself don't feel adequate, don't feel whole? What really is the root of genuine interaction?

I am glad I asked you. I am glad you stayed. I am glad I didn't hear those gun shots alone. I know you heard them, but I don't know if you willl actually admit to that. Regardless though, I know my thruth. Before I met you I never understood the power of other people's truths but I absolutely understand it now. Truth is a power you have to earn within people. For some that comes naturally, others...not so much.

the tops of my feet are so soft but the part that meets the ground is dry and almost cracking hard

omg why do I feel this lonely~~~????

I know this chick who who was skinny in high school but then got like really fat a couple years out of high school but she still stayed w/ her bf and it kinda gave me hope that getting fat maybe isnt so bad and then i saw a pic of her recently where she's like pretty damn heavy compared to what she used to look like and I really felt happy for her that she found someone that stays with her no matter what like even though she gained 30 pounds but they broke up tonight so idk i think being fat ruins everything in life

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