Sept 4 2025 category 4 hurricane destroy muami. Heard alexa Amazon say  it on tik tok. 

 Yesterday driving home I asked myself  "is it possible that life is going well for me right now?" and I really thought about what that means and looks like. Instead of creating problems or expecting life to be this hectic and stressful event constantly, life can actually be good. 

I create stress and problems with everything I do. 

Food isn't healthy enough, so I create stress around eating
I'm not doing a good enough job, so stress is created
Relationships aren't satisfying, stress is created

etc etc etc

But there's an expectation to that, a familiar energy, that can be changed

It's so hard to articulate it properly

But, life can just flow

Every second doesn't need to be thought of so deeply, things don't need to be read into as much

Life can simply be okay. Life can be going well. Relationships can be good, work can be going well, things can be okay. 

The worst thing a woman can be is DIRTY 

 I will be heart led.

Each morning I will wake up and breath, with my hand over my heart
Ask myself - what does my heart WANT? What does it FEEL? What does it NEED?

Not my head. Not my logic. Not my anxiety. My heart.
The space where love lies. 
The space where connection lies.

The mind/head is where disconnect happens, where ego and individualism come in

But the heart is different. The heart doesn't care about that stuff. It just wants to be love. So it needs to be nurtured and put on a pedastal.

What does my heart need today in order to be felt, satisfied, and heard? 
What can I do to be in alignment with my heart?
How can I be heart-led today?

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Bought non alcoholic wine for the first time tonight, pretty good honestly!

I don't know what I am doing and instead of that being a trigger or an upset or cause for insecurity I have the power to change it around and to learn and grow and ask questions and be curious. Maybe it'll help others Grow too.  Maybe instead of hiding the parts of me that I feel are lacking I need to be honest about them and forthright so that they hold less power. 

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 During my monday meditation practice I realized that I have been living too much in my head and need to connect with my heart. It's my heart that I need to be paying more attention to and let guide me.