how are we supposed to know if we who we are
is really who we're meant to be?
how am i supposed to know if what i'm doing
is going to lead my in the direction i want to be in?
how am i supposed to know which direction is best
when i don't know myself?
how am i supposed to do things, without there ever being a "supposed to" concept.

i'm way too hard on myself.
but what else would there be, otherwise?
agh