part of me wants to disappear for awhile, seclude myself, and return to the world with a new outlook, solidified goals, and an increased sense of self.

part of me wants to stop going to college and just make a lot of money until I figure out what I really want to do.

part of me feels like I am letting the invisible structure of this society run my life; letting life make me instead of me making my life.

part of me feels weak and useless because I constinuously and consistantly hide from human interaction for fear of rejection. or... I think that is why atleast.