you know when you leave toothpaste out without the cap on and it gets really hard at the top and you have to squeeze the tube really hard before the hardness finally gives and it kinds of makes a "pop" with all the fresh, non-hard tooth paste? well I feel like that creatively. I feel like there is this potential somewhere within me because I can feel myself wanting it and edging close to it, but there is a bunch of hardened toothpaste in my way waiting for me to just pop right on through.

yeah.