when you're so overwhelmed with feelings you don't actually want to be feeling but know you should be allowing yourself to feel that all you can do is wipe the tears from your eyes that have been clogging your tear ducts for 3 months, look at the sun reflecting off the hot tin roof of the building across the street, notice the grass and the way the sun creates shadows of the trees on the black asphalt, pick yourself up and just laugh it the fuck off.