(Intro/Overview)
So I want to start journaling again because I think it's good to process thoughts, vent about shit that goes on, and remind myself of the positive aspects of myself and my day. I want to use this as a place to put all my thoughts, no matter what they are, but I want to focus my journal on positivity and creative expression. I've grappled with the thought of doing one of those writing challenges where you write about a different thing everyday, or every week, but we'll see what happens. I just think for a long time I made the decision not to process my thoughts because they were scary or uncomfortable or just hard to sit with, but i'm at the point in my life now where I owe it to myself to do those things, and really feel and process my emotions. So this is me starting.

I have been in quarantine since March 10 officially. I have been working from home and not really going places bc everything is closed. Basically, things i've done in quarantine are:
-Play Jackbox
-Facetime/Houseparty
-Play 21 questions
-Paint by numbers
-Pastels
-Reading (sorta)
-Coloring Books
-Gardening
-Cooking (as usual)
-Walking/Jogging
-Go to the park w/ Kelly (and eat Sushi)
-Meditation/stretching

I have been doing a lot of meditation, trying to focus on the positive. I've stopped drinking, feeling more pure and awake, in tune with myself. It feels good. I want to hold onto to that feeling. It's something I know is good for me and I want to continue doing things that are good for me instead of going against myself, creating dissonance.

As I continue to listen to myself, my thoughts, my gut, my body, etc, I have been looking for the positive side of things. I have been finding lessons in the small things, in the simple things, in the natural things we pass by every single day without paying any mind to. I remembered that I have a voice and I can use it, even if it's just for myself and the satisfaction of knowing that I have created something. It's been silenced inside of me for a long time, and I really want to work with MYSELF to nurture it again and bring it to the forefront. Where my voice doesn't shake, where I fit neatly into the lines, sure of myself. I know I can get there, I just need to be able to allow myself to be vulnerable. And I am finally ready for that. Here's to.