I need this to stop. I don't know how to make this stop. I try and try and I keep running in circles

you need to love yourself before you are free to do or feel

CONFIDENCE IS WHAT TURNS THE LIGHT ON!

I don't know what is holding me back from getting close to people

I don't want to be locked anymore. where is my key?

if you never force yourself to escape from the inner barriers hindering you from oppurtunity, you have no room to complain.

every. thing. is. culturally. constructed.
nothing. has. any. meaning. (solidified)
we. don't. know. the. truth.

part of me wants to disappear for awhile, seclude myself, and return to the world with a new outlook, solidified goals, and an increased sense of self.

part of me wants to stop going to college and just make a lot of money until I figure out what I really want to do.

part of me feels like I am letting the invisible structure of this society run my life; letting life make me instead of me making my life.

part of me feels weak and useless because I constinuously and consistantly hide from human interaction for fear of rejection. or... I think that is why atleast.