things that make me want throw up on myself

(for good and bad reasons alike)

- the level of insecurity I harbor when comparing/in comparing myself to others.
- seemingly never getting what I want directly, but instead getting it at the next level down.
- the vastness of the world.
- nervousness before hanging with new people.
- realizing you don't stick out like a sore thumb and really it's just all in my head.
- without lust so many things would be meaningless.
- not being able to say no.
- the instantaneous reason that this is the key route of so many problems.
- seeing Radiohead live, Thom Yorke sining in front of my eyes as if I am the only one in the room.
- Love. (which is both good and bad, and why it should be kept 'till last)