if i'm the person standing on top of the floor boards, and you're the one still making their way up the stair case, i most likely will stop wanting you. but when it's the other way around it's always opposite. we always want the people who don't want us. and we always don't want the people that do.

i think i've given lopsided a new meaning for myself.

there's a lot i need to accept about my reality.

there's a lot i need to solidifiy and figure out.

what's frustrating is that i know my base pretty well, and i think i give/gave others the benefit of the doubt with how well they knew theirs, too. but i'm realizing that most people aren't really that in touch with themselves and it's hard for me to understand that because i've never been that way. when it comes to people there are only a couple things i don't understand about them. this is one of them. sort of. hmm.

not sure what i want or what i feel or what to do. not sure what will benefit me the most either. it's hard to see the future and since i don't know what i want....ah this is a cycle.

cycle cycle cycle repeat repeat

take it away away from here here

fade the colors blur the lines

close your eyes

and cut your blinds

fall off the earth

forget the sound

find a way

to somehow be round

turn the stones

on the bed of rocks

be careful where you sleep

this is a far warning, my friends

some day soon you might feel the bends.

meh off center off axis need to find my markings

footings colors sounds love SOMETHING

somebody trick me.

for once. please.

i'm tired of the same responses and stale faces