laughl laughing i'm silently laughing. laughing in my head, laughing through a text, laughing in your face. always trust your instincts. trust your guts. trust what you think you know but don't want to admit. if you feel something you feel it for a reason. trust your gut. trust it. please trust it.

chances. one, two, no more than two chances. decisions are made. always being swept aside for someone better. someone else. someone who makes them feel more whole. my heart it breaks it rips a little at a time. self worth seems diminished in small aspects. i don't want to feel it i don't want to think it but it does, it does.

somebody wake me. if i look for it it won't come. now it won't come. i should have listened. you are nothing but a joke. a joke of a boy but even more so a joke of a man. you're nothing close to a man. ive never seen anyone with such insincerity before. i didn't know people actually did that. didn't realize i was so far off from the tracks you were on. but it's okay, it's for the better. i'm laugh laughing silently aloud with friends laughing.

have fun, you little boy. have fun with her and whatever sick twisted future you wish to indulge yourself in. i want no part of it. i want white cotton sheets and thin air and real, true, genuine smiles. i want what you will never give me so goodbye goodbye see ya later goodbye