i am my own person. i can make myself happy. i have everything i need in order to succeed in life. i can do this. i am strong. nothing works the way you want it to. nothing gives but that doesn't mean you can't. i don't want to rage. angry me is scary me. angry me pushes. i miss you. i love you. i want you to be mine. but that isn't all there is to life. there's so many opportunities to run in the grass, feel the sun on my face. i just need to find my place. it is okay to be alone. it is okay to be lonely. this willl not drown me. i am strong.