it's just that, there are certain times where my life seems to rain...no downpour upon me and always at the worst possible moments. always during the times where I want the sunlight instead of the cold, damp, irritating feel of the rain seeping into my hair and through my clothes. and this is when life seems like it's too much to handle. I feel myself becoming more translucent, fading away within the air molecules. I don't know what I am supposed to do at this point, but everything just seems so heavy and so light at the same time, and in the worst way possible. It is a horrible feeling, nothing gives, and I offer no stimulation. So Now What?