I don't want love I want solidification!

dating is definitely stupid. I decided I do not want a boyfriend. No way no how

PLASTIC SKIN IS EVERWHERE.
melt my plastic skin
make me melt and melt and melt
turn me liquid
and drink me down down down
I want to drown and disintegrate in your being.
suck me down, keep me there, don't let me escape.
don't keep doing this

whyyyyy do I care so much about what others thinkk?!

you know i'm either drunk or in love when I play Minus the Bear in attempt to either hook up or simulate my feelings through music. or in an attempt to subtly show loneliness which is useless anyways.

I am super happy I got to see Umphrey's Mcgee atleast once in concert.

It's nice to meet you.

My name is Madi.

And I do not exist.

A list of bands to download

manchester orchestra
deer hunter
carnival
la dispute
silver chair
wolfgang 
jerry cantrell
datsik
days of the new
sharks keep moving

Ghost Walker- Ian Mackenzie Jeffers

don't like the feeling, as if the feeling is too much to handle, too much to defend oneself against.

it makes me happy when people around me are consipring to complete the same goal I am; operation: let's drunk tonight.
I can't wait to go away to college.

once the important people come I fade fade fade away.

I want to go back to 8th grade when dry sex was the norm and premature ejaculation in ones pants didn't make a girl feel so bad.

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh I hate sexual inclination!

why won't I let myself be happy? why don't I know how to be happy?

lonliness always happens right before you start to like someone.
oh no/
ohhhhh no

All I want to do is get drunk, forget about the human condition, and fall in love. Just for tonight, and then maybe forever.

I don't know, man. I just feel like sometimes my life is piled high with all the wrong people