Saturday, July 25, 2015

I am so afraid I have nothing to offer this world.

Dear god, I am so afraid.
There is a true beauty that exists
in the way you can create something from absolutely nothing.


There is a true beauty in freezing the very 
moments that exist within the minutes of 
each
and every day.
The confines of each and every second
that form the structure that is the minute by which we judge our appearances by.
And, in turn, form the same hours we remember memories by.

There is no greater beauty than realizing where you are,
realizing that the very second that is within the very minute in which you are existing
the very minuscule moment you are breathing
there is absolutely nothing that is going to hurt you.


There is nothing at all that could alter the very stillness that surrounds you;
whether it be the simple but yet complex way the seat you are sitting on is supporting you
or the way in which the trees smell while you're walking past them while the wind breezes
or maybe, just maybe, it's the way some total stranger looks at the moon
and then looks longingly back at you.


we go through life in these interactions of swirls
circling, repeating, constantly, constantly
repeating.

back
and
forth.

forever.

And I will never give up on finding the perfect balance
of interaction and silence
that can only be described by the way the air
gets both tighter and lighter simultaneously
a perfect balance that can only be described as 

Love.

And I want to fall in love in so many ways
but most of all I want to fall in love without thinking about it

I want to crawl underneath your skin,
dissolve from your body heat
and lie between the layer that exists
between your skin and muscle.

I want to be with you everywhere you go
a gentle pull of your heart strings...
do you feel me in the air you breath?

I want to uncover the world of you
that exists beneath this one
where all the things we've left unsaid
are all the things we really want.

*How do I tell you without freaking you out that I want to know everything about you?

Thursday, July 2, 2015

I don't know what it is about alcohol but one layer of it underneath my skin and the world fits perfectly into alignment.

I want to love myself, and someone else, as much as I love alcohol.