fall in love in swimming pools while the chlorine burns your eye sight

i'm HORRRRRIBLE at doing work in a timely matter. ughhh

small goals to achieve the big ones.

big goal: by my 21 bday I want to be 15 pounds skinnier.

that gives me:  5 months and 12 days.
that means: 3 pounds a month.

I can do it.

I like being single

I can't stop thinking about the fact that I am incapable of feeling

If nobody knows, it never happened

I will not deny the fact that females of all ages, all around the world, face pressure from the media to appear, act, and feel a certain feminine way, but I don't think many people realize just how much of a strain it must be to appear equally as masculine for men in today's society.

rest in shells i've designed,
there's a sun that shines in-
breathe! love is air.
where are you?
where are you?
there's a sun that shines in you.

some stupid things

"I feel most alone on a bad date, when you’re sitting across from someone who clearly doesn’t get you and never will. You wonder how someone that looked so good on paper could get lost in translation. You wonder just how hard it is to find someone who looks at things the same way you do. Are you really such a rarity? Is the way you look at life really so odd? That’s loneliness to me: feeling like you’re not being heard or recognized and sitting across from a person who was supposed to be part of your tribe but isn’t. Not even close."

"My worst fear is being older and looking back at my twenties with a sting of regret because I was too locked inside of myself, was too scared of everything and anything. I’ve created this cozy little nook for myself but it’s become too alienating. I know everybody should go out of their comfort zone because that’s when amazing things usually happen."

"It may seem like a lot of this stuff is not in your control, that you don’t have the power to change it, but you’re often wrong. You do. It would just involve a little bit more work and responsibility, which a lot of people just aren’t ready for. They say they want to change, they say they want to make things better but the reality is that the bad things still feel good to them. They don’t want to stop the bad habits. A lot of their identity is invested in them and they don’t know who they’d be without it."

nights
may keep you suave
may bring the stars.
nights
may bring you love
may bring back love

I actually hate myself and think alcohol is my friend but alcohol is not my friend alcohol is an enemy in disguise

this has absolutely no relevance at all but it was said a couple times tonight:


"I overlooked an orchid searching for a rose."

Always give a girl a straw with her drink.
Never order wings.
Someone remind me to brush my teeth.

I don't attach myself to anything.
A N Y T H I N G
This is definitely a problem.

"When your date looks at you like there's noone else in the room, you can't put a value on that. It's priceless."

"When your date looks at you like there's noone else in the room, you can't put a value on that. It's priceless."

It is quite funny that people will admit they dislike something but yet are so passionate about their dislike for that something that they devote as much or more time to it then they would to something they actually like.

Irony.

So I guess if you wanna know me all ya gotta do is read my twitter

I may or may not be an alcoholic.

if you want it you have to reach for it.
you atleast have to try.
if you don't even attempt it then you will NEVER get it

why have I not created a list of amazing one liners from Minus the Bear.
this is  MUST.

If you want me to go on a second date with you, do not try to kiss me on the first.

I am so fat this is just not okay. I don't stick to my convictions I don't even try to lose fucking weight when I know I should. what the fuck. I am so fat this is not okay. I can't keep pushing this off it's just going to get worse. If I worked out I would feel better and look better and probably get what I want out of my life more. I need to listen to myself and stop this bullshit. I am not doing myself any good being this way. I am so fat this is just not okay

i'd like to be taken apart from the inside

I should write again.

YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF
YOU DON'T FIND YOURSELF, YOU CREATE YOURSELF

how is it possible to be so attracted to someone you have never met before?

there really is no nice way of telling someone you only like them for their cock

are you always sad?
someone asked.
(always is such a long, long time.)
I couldn't say.
But.
If sadness was a sea, I would drown in it.
(Salty and warm, sadness is).
(Cold too, somtimes.)

And I happen to love the sea.

hopefully at Upark I will find a dark haired guy with facial hair who likes good music, alcohol, good books, art, and coooking. is that a lot to ask for?



maybe I can't ask to find someone defined if i'm not even defined

SOME THINGS YOU DO REALLY PISS ME THE FUCK OFF.

You are the cutest boy at the party yet I'm afraid to tell you