I fear I will never find a mind connection and will have to settle with a body connection

I tried drowning out the voice in my head that kept telling me to kiss you but the more alcohol I drank the louder it got

I just realized I will never be like my mother.
I just realized I am NOT MY MOTHER.
shit.

you know when you leave toothpaste out without the cap on and it gets really hard at the top and you have to squeeze the tube really hard before the hardness finally gives and it kinds of makes a "pop" with all the fresh, non-hard tooth paste? well I feel like that creatively. I feel like there is this potential somewhere within me because I can feel myself wanting it and edging close to it, but there is a bunch of hardened toothpaste in my way waiting for me to just pop right on through.

yeah.

"Smart people talk about ideas.
Common people talk about things.
Mediocre people talk about people."
-Jules Romains.


This quote has literally fucking ruined me.

I still have all of these worries. I still feel like I have no voice. I live with the motivation to find my voice and when that happens I will find someone who vibrates on that same frequency as I do.

it is so easy to ask yourself what kind of person you want to be and answer with some fairly adequate answers but then never really do much to make headway into becoming that person. it is way too easy to sleep, sleep, sleep life away.