not being able to trust 90% of what is around you is really tiresome, ya know.

been

lying to myself for fucking ages.

maybe i should just stop trying, eh?

nobody

really talks to me anymore. all anyone ever says is lol, oh, yeah, or haha. i really don't think i'm that damn boring. what the hell.

we're like a team.

fuck
yes[:

i feel so empty. i can't believe this happened again.
8th time now i think. and 3 times as fucking hard.
damn, what the hell.

i really

can't fucking stand all your uneeded shit. why don't you get your head out of your ass and learn some damn communication skills or some trust or SOMETHING. like i keep saying, keep doing it and see where its gonna get you. cause you know where that is where it has been getting you to? NOWHERE. exactly. wow. i'm laughing because it's so passed anger it's just a laughable matter now. i understand why you are the way you are but i don't even care anymore. because it's been forever and you need to do something or else something bad is giong to happen. and well, as much as it isn't in my nature to say this, I FUCKING TOLD YOU SO!


ha!

today was a good day

and i'm gonna leave it at that.