I need to create somethingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
I need something to feel real
I need something to last
I need to fall in love
Create a picture
A painting
Go somewhere
Do something
Find a purpose
Find a direction
FALL IN LOVE
I am sinking
I don't know
This is not living
This is not happiness
This is invisibility
This is insecurity.

It takes a tremendous amount of energy to try and act like nothing bothers me.
It takes an enormous amount of energy to act like I don't feel 100% alone in this world.