perhaps i'm just wasting my time trying to get myself to a comfort level i wish to be at while you waste your time still half starry eyed over the girl who put her everything into you, and probably vise versa for all i know....

perhaps maybe i should just back away. i'm not stupid, you know.

perhaps maybe i'm just waiting in a line for something that will be sold out when i get to the front of it.

that feeling in the pit of your stomach that makes you feel as if you are competing in a race that you've already lost before you even started.

i'm really hoping you didn't/aren't doing what my pessimism is telling me you are doing.
i really hope you aren't doing that.